When I was 13 my siblings all went to jail. When I was 17 I joined the FUCKING Navy. The holidays are not usually real swell because I do not usually feel like family...today I got to talk to my mom, sister, and brother though.

For at least a small bit of time things kinda seem somewhat normal...I am sure it won't last, but it feels good right now :)

Now I know my mom will read this, and she will be mad at much of what I say (or how I say it). In all honesty though I can't let others control my actions, thoughts, or expressions...thats how I end up finding self destruction. Tomorrow I will pretend that today I did not find out that my mother found this.