catnip and ecstasy
talking between dreams
though I never fell asleep
friends are all you need

This is sorta just mixed up, but I like thinking of weird lines that I might be able to use later in a better way. Something makes me really like the words catnip and ecstasy next to each other even if that is bizarre.

I think both of those drugs have the same net effect of making animals excited and seemingly happy enough to not care so much about some of the day to day concerns of life. But they are both also quite temporary in nature (much more temporary than life). And it is odd to think that if you really found your passions and pushed that you may be able to feel that way most the time without doing drugs.

It is so easy to let chemicals play the roll of friends and then build up a self fulfilling prophecy which makes the world whatever you want it to be. At the same time it is easier to be happy if you have real social activity in your life.

Also it is fascinating how I am so inept at so many things, and yet do well largely because I have cool friends. As good as I feel now it is hard to think of how I spent so many years being so pessimistic and self destructive. Although I still am a bit self destructive...am nowhere near where and what I recently was.